Understanding Versus Conventional Knowledge
AVATAR ADI DA SAMRAJ: The usual student develops all sorts of agonizing devices in order to retain information long enough to take an examination: underlining, keeping notes on cards, memorizing, grinding the material over and over again in his or her head. Then, when the examination is over, it is all forgotten! This is because people think that the mind is a little box in their heads with only a certain number of volts, and that they have to play all kinds of games to get it to hold things.
The student must come to the point where he or she trusts the mind and realizes that it is not a little box that one must play games with to get it to retain and do things, but that it is completely fluid, formless, boundless, capable of remembering everything, doing anything one wants. When one begins to make that assumption, while being a student at the same time, study will become much easier.
Understanding must take place in the midst of the entire affair of looking at the page and falling asleep and drifting away and thinking. Understanding must awaken in the midst of life, and, therefore, understanding must also apply to this particular activity of study. Whether or not it does depends entirely on the force of your insight at the level of consciousness at any moment.
Ordinarily you assume you must be interested in something in order to be able to learn about it or to deal with it in any way. Otherwise you suspect you will go to sleep or get angry. When you are in school, you must study things, whether you are interested in them or not, and, therefore, school provides the circumstance where you must deal with the mind, at least to a certain degree. When you study My Wisdom-Teaching, you are not about to get a degree, you are not about to get paid or applauded or anything else. Thus, there is no external motivation. If sadhana, or the ordeal of practice in My Company, is going to be meaningful to you, you must first of all find some reason for doing it. But, ultimately, the problem I am describing is not one of interest. It is one of resistance, contraction, the avoidance of relationship enacted relative to the functions of the conscious mind.
Now, if it is clear enough that there is something interesting to you about reading books about God and Divine Realization and Truth, then My Wisdom-Teaching will not seem so alien, as though you had to pack in a mass of stuff of which you really have no comprehension at all. Yet fundamentally, you must live this sacred practice in My Company. Bring the understanding that is growing in relationship with Me to bear on all the incidents of your life from day to day, including this study.
There is really no mystery about what is happening when you are sitting down to read, any more than there is a mystery about what is happening in meditation and in Satsang with Me altogether. There is this turning away, this contraction, this avoidance of relationship. When there is no longer any turning, the mind becomes very useful, just like everything else does. It becomes open, free. It is able to deal with things outside itself, information, data, things to observe. It also becomes open and active within itself.
There is no dilemma in the mind itself, any more than there is a dilemma in any other function. All dilemmas are your own creation in this instant, and, until there is penetrating understanding of your own functional existence from moment to moment, your life is just an endless enumeration of dilemmas, of problematic situations. So you sit down to read, and that is difficult. You sit down to be in Satsang, and that is difficult. You have to go to work today, and that is difficult. Everything is surrounded with massive complexities, and these are your own creations. You will continue to find difficulties and dilemmas everywhere, until you begin to see something fundamental about yourself. And in the case of that kind of insight, real changes begin to occur, when you happen to be reading or when you happen to go to work. This is the same understanding that becomes active under all conditions.
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